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Psalm 139:2

2You know when I sit down or stand up.
You know my thoughts even when I’m far away.

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Betty Rock from The Wally Show was healing from anxiety and depression. It turns out, that process had a lot more to do with forgiveness than you might expect…

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  1. Pamela Anne McCoy

    Thank you Betty. I, too, have gone through bouts of depression and anxiety and thought I was crazy because I was a Christian and Christians weren’t supposed to have these issues. I realized that I am a sinner saved by grace, God’s grace, and that he loves me when I’m anxious and when I’m not anxious. I just have to remember that on those days when anxiety creeps in, God is there and that I can do all things through him who gives me strength.

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    Thank you for sharing Betty!! I too believe that everyone goes through bouts such as you! I know I do!! It is difficult to break out of! Prayer is the most powerful tool that we have in any situation! God bless!

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    Thank you for sharing! I am so glad that you find relief and peace in the grace and love of Jesus!

  4. Profile photo of Cmlkvnval

    Thank you Betty!! Your story help me a lot to forgiving myself. Thank you everyone in the Wally Show and say hi.

  5. Deb

    I’ve been battling depression and self-condemnation my whole life. I know Jesus died for me and I know God loves me but most days I feel like He probably doesn’t like me very much. I know I sure don’t. How do you get past that? Most days it takes everything I have to get out of bed and go to work. My house is a horrible mess but I can’t seem to make myself take that first step to clean it. Literally and figuratively. I’m not a people person so I can’t make myself ask for help, although maybe that’s just pride or hating to feel helpless. How do you forgive your own mistakes when that’s all it feels like your life is made of?

    • Profile photo of Rebie WAY-FM

      Deb, there are stretches of time where I feel like I can’t do anything right. Psalm 139 helps a lot in those moments! Take a minute to read it today and remember this is what God says about YOU!

      Also, I know it’s really hard to ask for help, but there’s something powerful about someone who cares speaking truth into your life when you need to be reminded. Seeking out someone from church, a trusted mentor, or a Christian counselor could be exactly what you’re needing!

      I’m glad you’re part of this group. You’re definitely not alone in this!

      • Kunmi Onapeju

        I relate to this so very much even though Im only 13. I always feel wrong about myself and unforgiven. i probably silently say the’im sorry for all of my sins’ prayer a thousand times a day out of routine because I feel so bad. It makes it hard to focus on school or have normal conversations with people because I feel so guilty about everything that I do. I can remind myself of God’s grace, but it seems like I fall back into the same old patterns every time. I believe that I can just continue to read about God’s grace and love and learn to forgive myself because of your story so thank you for sharing.

        • Forward Grace

          I am a mother of a 13 yo and your struggle breaks my heart. This is such a delicate time in a young persons life. I hope there is someone in your life that can help speak life into your world. Father, you know the struggles of feeling like not deserving of any grace or love. Lord I pray that you will let Kunmi really see them self as you do. A really good and loving Abba daddy. You love holds no strings on the gift of Grace and love.

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      We’re praying for you today! From WAY-FM.

    • Forward Grace

      Every sentence you wrote is my life. Self condemnation, major clinical depression from my earliest memories. It is so easy for me to believe that God loves you but me….well . I love Laura Daigles song “how can it be”. For me, a lot of therapy,journaling (write to God) asking Him to show me and .medication. Is my house still a mess..yep. Bills… Yep. I know it is not just you and not just me. Somedays all I can do…is the next right thing and keep in front of that I am a beloved kiddo of God. He sits right down next to me, saying “Sweetpea, who told you those lies that you aren’t good enough to earn my love and grace? I love you just because you are mine” and then ice cream…We go for ice cream.

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    Katie

    Love this! So encouraging to hear others stories and know you aren’t alone in hard and good times of life 🙂

  7. Andrea

    Thank you Betty, I needed to hear this today.

  8. Dottie

    Thank you for these words today! They were very timely. I too struggle with forgiving myself, but it has been years. Again, thank you.

  9. Joani

    Thank you for this reminder of how God has already forgiven us and accepts us as we are. I do believe forgiving ourself is the hardest thing to do.

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    Chip

    Thanks Betty! It is really brave of you to share something so personal to you. You are a strong and loving lady. Life has its times when it can get you down and feel overwhelming. Just lean back and God will catch you and carry you threw those times. Your faith will always get you threw.

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    Depression is so scary. I’ve been there a time or two: It’s the unholy ghost that convinces you that you’re being punished for something you didn’t do or something you couldn’t help. Those days when you don’t want to get out of bed are the hardest, but there is something oddly satisfying about being able to do so.

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    In my senior year of high school, I went through anxiety and depression. I put an enormous amount of pressure on myself to try to figure out what degree I was going to try to get in college, and what I was going to do for the rest of my life. That is where the anxiety came from, but then I started feeling depressed. I could not shake it. I tried everything…praying, reading the Bible, reciting Bible verses, crying, etc. When it got really bad, I decided that I needed counseling, and my counselor helped me work through my anxiety and depression. I am not cured from my anxiety and depression by a long shot, but it does not have as much of a grip on me because of God, the counselor he put in my life and the medication he gave me for anxiety and depression. With God’s help I know that one day I will be completely free from the chains of anxiety and depression. Thank you God!

    • Profile photo of Rebie WAY-FM

      Thank you for sharing your story! It sounds like God placed some amazing resources in your life to help where you need it. And I know for a fact He’s with you each day!

  13. Mike Saites

    Amen Betty.

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    Asher

    Comparing ourselves to others is never fair, because we’re comparing how we feel on the inside to how others look on the outside. Easier said than remembered! 😆 Thank you for sharing, Betty.

  15. Becky

    Betty Rock, thanks for sharing your story.! I have been struggling with my own depression & anxiety for a long time in waves. I have found that forgiving myself is a process not a one and done event.especialy having been a victim of childhood abuse.

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      Praying for you today!
      From your friends at WAY-FM.

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    Betty,

    You are so precious. I love your heart and willingness to share your life, especially this topic that can have such a stigma. I, too, struggle with anxiety. I pray God takes it completely away from both of us. Blessings to you.

  17. penny vaughan

    I know about not forgiving oneself. As a mother and Grandmother I blane myself for the way the turned out in life the wild side. the girls some married some not the drugs. do working and when I do through them out then I feel wrong for having them on the street. I son is 50 and h he lost his house 3 yrs ago so the moved in with us. the kids run crazy and they make me fill like I did something wrong I pray to uderstand but I still will brokenhearted. HELP ME

    • Profile photo of Rebie WAY-FM

      Saying a prayer for you and your family today, Penny! I’d encourage you to stick with this study and find someone you can trust to talk through this. Maybe someone from church, a trusted mentor, or a Christian counselor. We weren’t meant to walk through things alone!

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    Angie

    Thank you, Betty! This post is so encouraging. Your wit and humor bless me every day! I love that you aren’t icky sweet! Your personality ROCKS, so the name suits you well. 🙂

  19. Sheryl

    Thank you for sharing Betty, this truly spoke to my heart.

  20. Johnny

    Thank you

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    Thank you Betty,

    I think it is important for people to hear your story. So many suffer from anxiety and depression and they suffer alone thinking that there is something wrong with them and that no one will know what they are dealing with or going through. When the exact opposite is true. There are so many that understand and that can help.

    Susie

  22. Julie

    Thank you so much for sharing. I lived for years with anxiety. It took a move, and a recommitment to God for me to begin to heal. God was with me all the time and brought people for every step of the way. Yes, it was very hard to forgive myself, but everything came together. I now see that my biggest growth spirt was when I was living at the bottom of the well.

  23. Paula Slack

    Thank you Betty for sharing your story with such honesty. I was diagnosed as bipolar, OCD and ADD (said I was probably ADHD as a child but as we age we sometimes lose the hyperness)when my son was in 1st grade and also diagnosed as ADHD. Unfortunately, it’s inherited. Anyhoo, I have severe bouts of depression that come on like ocean waves out of nowhere. Sometimes I feel it changing, others it hits like a bomb. At times I feel ashamed as if I did something to bring it on. Other times I can accept it as just a part of who I am. It’s still tough to forgive oneself when you are in those valleys cause you question everything. Why is God allowing this to happen to me? What did I do this time? And I lash out at God and then feel guilty about it for even questioning him. So I totally get where you are coming from. Glad you are on the other side of it all. Your message will inspire others to keep pushing thru.

  24. Danny

    About a week ago, I sent Wally an email on this very subject. Together, you two have hit it out of the park. I’ve known, but didn’t believe, that brighter days were coming. Thanks to you guys, I now know and believe that God will give me the strength to move on.

    Thank you.

  25. Robert Palardy

    I’m bipolar 2,with major depressive disorder. I can relate to what you were going through. Mine on the other hand has been a lifelong mental illness. I remember in middle school, I would skip school. I couldn’t handle the illness. I would go up to the farm by my house. Find a field, and just be at peace. I found my escape. My mental disorder is at times devastaing. I comes up out of nowhere. And you cry, freak out, mind is racing a million miles a minute. I’m on heavy duty meds for this, but it still creeps in once in a while. I’ve been on disability for 8 years now because of this illness. I really don’t believe I can function in a working environment. So, I’m just living month to month on my disability. I have my church, crossroads here in Loveland who are so awesome believers in Christ. I go, but alot of times anxiety and depression get in the way. I volunteer every single Thursday to help out in maintenance. Every other Sunday I volunteer to clean bathrooms, trash, vacuum, whatever else is needed before services start. I get there at 7:30. I’m always ready do serve our Lord Jesus Christ in any capacity needed. I at least try. Anyway, there’s part of my story. I have much more to share. Meditate on verses daily. Let God’s word talk to you. I feel so much better knowing he’s there with me. Thank you. Bob Palardy

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      Bob, are you in Colorado? I know of some wonderful Christian counseling resources If you are

  26. Mariela De Jesus

    thank you for sharing… i have struggled with anxiety and depression many times in my life. i am learning on how to forgive myself. keep on reminding myself that God has forgiven me so why am i so hard on myself.

  27. Carolyn Barnes

    God bless you Betty! I have literally gotten on my face and cried out to God and 6 months later a major prayer was answered.
    What I had to forgive myself for, was staying in a particular friendship a year and a half too long. It affected me so much, I couldn’t eat.This was 20 years ago. 6 months later,I met my husband through mutual friends. All is well now and I’ve been married to my wonderful husband, June will be 19 years.

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    Thank you for your thoughts! Powerful testimony on how the Lord has worked in your life!

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    Thank you for being so transparent. I can see God shining through you as He clothes you with His wisdom and courage. I will be praying for you specifically. I understand why God has laid you upon my heart often. God bless you

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    You are such a beautiful soul Betty! I started my first anxiety episode ten years ago and it was the worst feeling ever. I felt I was going to die and just like you, it came crashing with depression. I can tell you it has gotten a lot better dealing with it by me focusing of who I am: a control freak who wants to fix every problem and getting on my knees and asking God to take my burden away; I am not God who can fix everyone’s problems, not even my own. God bless you abundantly and that beautiful and caring heart you have.

  31. Nicole

    Thank you for sharing, Betty Rock! I have been going through this same situation and it’s been so overwhelming, like you said, because I’ve never experienced this before. It can be such a confusing time trying to figure out the purpose and what’s going on.

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    This happens all too often I feel with Christians and often times we struggle to get out of the rut and see God’s faithfulness. Thanks for the perspective Betty! “Spiritual Depression” is also a great book on this topic!

  33. Thank You for sharing that Betty. I never would have guessed you were going through that. Praying for ya. Take care. Wayne Vogt

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    Oh goodness how I can relate.
    Thank you, Betty, so much… needed to hear this.
    Encouraging words and FatherGod with me..
    Gives me hope!

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    Thank you so much, Betty Rock! I don’t know if I ever truly feel clinically depressed, but I do see I’ve been anxious over many things in my present and even my unknown future. I’m even older than you, but you still encourage me as a fellow single ( though I’m more single than anyone I’ve ever met), and seeing you gives me hope that my life DOESN’T have to include a boyfriend or husband to give me a sense of significance.

  36. Jason Harden

    Thanks for sharing, I am fighting this now. My wife and I are not on good terms do to lie my son has shared. This spun things out of control and with false thoughts now people believing. I am hurting so bad in side for things I did not even do, but my wife believes. God is a big God and I know he knows the truth. But when the one person who knows you and sees you for all your junk believes the lies of others, it takes you to a dark place where you feel God can not even help. I cry out why, but no answer.
    Then I heard this message about forgiving yourself. WOW, I learned I hold onto shame from years ago that I need to forgive to be able to take the next step…. Thanks for being real….

  37. Tamara Creech

    Thank you for sharing about your experience with depression. It is a hard thing to go through and to watch a loved one go through it. God Bless.

  38. Cindy

    I think depression is one of the hardest things for Christians to deal with as they think, as you said, that if you were a “better” person or had more faith, you wouldn’t have to deal with this. God made us emotional beings for a reason and those emotions can give us grief as well as give us great joy. He walked you through that and you leaned on him. You learned something in the process and now you can help others who are going through this. Thank you for sharing, Betty!

  39. Ladonna Noble

    Thank you

  40. Mary

    Betty, Your willingness to be open about your struggles is so courageous and I want to thank you. I have dealt with depression for as long as I can remember, back when I was in high school over a decade ago. It comes and goes, and recently I have been going through the darkest of spirals yet where I even attempted a shot on my own life. This has been extremely trying on me, and has tested my faith to the brink (I would almost call it a crisis of faith to be honest). To know that others have and are going through this, and remembering that God isn’t punishing me, that I haven’t done something wrong to deserve this and to realize that the thought of, “if I would just be more “perfect” it would all just go away” is a lie has helped me to hold on just a little bit longer. Thank you

  41. Kimberly

    Thank you Betty. I have a hard time forgiving myself over my mom dying from cancer. I know that God had a place for her. It’s hard to not blame yourself.

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    Thank you Betty. So many Christ followers are embarrassed by their struggles with anxiety and depression. Worried that these feelings are not of God. His love for us is truly amazing.

  43. Barry

    Thank you. I have been dealing with some of these same issues for a while also. Thanks you for sharing. I pray we can all get thru our issues and God still love us, care for us and that we can glorify God daily.

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    Susan

    Anxiety & depression are so common, yet so ignored in churches because we can have the idea that we just lack faith. You reveal truth and light in your message. thanks

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    Dori

    THANK YOU, BETTY, for being so BRAVE!! Speaking out about mental health issues is SO HARD, even in this day and age, and it’s incredibly sad. Hundreds of thousands, even millions, of people in the US alone suffer in silence because of the stigma, when they don’t have to. As a physician, it breaks my heart to see people still having to struggle day to day because of the guilt and pain dealt to them by others who believe the diagnosis is best treated by “getting over it!” I am ECSTATIC you found solace in God and He gave you healing, but He also gave us knowledge and medication, and people who need those are NOT weak. Just like diabetes or cancer, it is a DISEASE that has a NAME and a TREATMENT. It is not some CURSE God has put on us because we aren’t faithful enough, or don’t pray enough. And to those of you who were also SO BRAVE and posted comments, if you need more than prayer to help, GET IT! You are NOT weaker for it, you are STRONGER, and BRAVER, and you will see your life made richer in the end!!

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      Thank you:) As a person who struggles with anxiety & depression also trying to lead my 13 year old daughter through mental health issues, it’s good to know there are Christian mental health professionals out there. May God bless you:)

  46. Michelle Clark

    Thank you Betty! I’m going through that right now. Is so hard to get out of bed and do anything. The only moments that I’m happy and with energy is when I’m out hiking with my dog and just enjoying nature and Gods creations. But as soon as I come home is like a black cloud takes over me. I think is that I have always been working and now I’m back to being a stay at home mom, and not dealing well with this. But like you said God knew this was going to happen and he has a plan for me. I’m sure he is preparing me for other things.

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    Carl

    As a person who has dealt with depression first hand within myself *and* watching my daughter deal with her anxiety and depression, I found your insight extremely calming. I, too, yell, cried, called out to God during my 5 months .. and I know He heard me and carried me through it everyday of it.

    Thank you for sharing such a personally intimate slice of your life.

  48. Tina Ledbetter

    I so struggle from this. I spent 5 years in active drug addiction. I received freedom from addiction by the grace of God. I had so much guilt that I had such a hard time forgiving myself. I have forgiven myself today because God forgave me. Thank you for telling your story. It helps to know that we all have struggles.

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    Thank you so much for sharing. I have struggled with bouts of anxiety & depression for30 years.Through all of the therapy & the medicines,I never found healing until I finally saw God for who He really is & accepted Him 8years ago.Through Jesus, I have find joy & peace that only He can provide. When panic attacks or depression try to creep back in, His strength overcomes them. 🙂

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    Fefe

    Thanks. I really needed that. I’m on that journey now.

  51. Erica Jackson

    This is what I’m dealing with right now, and it’s been going on for months. I know I have to forgive myself, but I’m not sure how. I keep praying for God to help me forgive myself, and I know it’s going to take time, but I’m struggling so much to accept it I guess. This was encouraging for sure. Knowing that someone else has gone through this anxiety and depression who’s a Christian and came out of it ok is another way God is showing me that everything is going to be just fine; that I’m going to be just fine. Thank you and thank God:)

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    Thanks Betty for this testimony, I know exactly what you were talking about, I too have gone through a situation and questioned why why why? I still do not understand the why but I do know that He will reveal it all to me in His timing and that He is in control and all will be good at the end because of His perfect plan. Thanks for the reminder. Praying for you. MJ

  53. Margie

    Some how I missed yours Betty & I can relate to it more than any of the others! I’ve suffered from depression, anxiety & panic disorder all my life & it’s very tough. I will be on medication for the rest of my life. I have prayed many times for God to take this from me. I also have ADD & it’s hard for me to leave my house. Because of all this I have no friends & I struggle a lot. I know my family loves me but I wonder why? I’m so thankful that God loves me even if I am a BIG mess!! I love you all on The Wally Show & especially The Podcasts. Thanks for listening!

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      Thanks Margie for the reminder that we are all a mess & that “God showed His great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners!” (Romans 5.8)

  54. Joni DeBord

    Thank you for sharing this! ❤

  55. Patricia

    I need to forgive myself and others but can’t. I’m such a mess.
    Thank you Betty Rock😘

  56. Annerre

    Thank you! I have been in this battle for over a year now. I have finally gone back to church and started praising God in my darkness. It really is a tough battle. Sometimes knowing you are not the only Christian who is there or has been there helps

  57. Lisa W

    Thank you for your testimony and transparency!! They overcame by their testimony and I too, struggle with depression from time to time and knowing that I’m not alone is comforting because God is always there to help me get through the tough times and the rough seasons. 🙏🏾❤️

  58. Josep

    Thank you for sharing this! it encouraged me. 🙂

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    Boy have I been there. It is easier for me to forgive others than myself.

  60. Susie

    Thank you Betty! I am working on forgiving myself. God bless you and thank you for sharing.

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    I don’t know how to get through this…..anxiety/ depression.

  62. Curt

    Thank you for sharing! Awesome!!!!