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Luke 8:43-48

43 A woman in the crowd had suffered for twelve years with constant bleeding, and she could find no cure. 44 Coming up behind Jesus, she touched the fringe of his robe. Immediately, the bleeding stopped.

45 “Who touched me?” Jesus asked.

Everyone denied it, and Peter said, “Master, this whole crowd is pressing up against you.”

46 But Jesus said, “Someone deliberately touched me, for I felt healing power go out from me.” 47 When the woman realized that she could not stay hidden, she began to tremble and fell to her knees in front of him. The whole crowd heard her explain why she had touched him and that she had been immediately healed. 48 “Daughter,” he said to her, “your faith has made you well. Go in peace.”

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WBSGbio_BekahBekah from The Wally Show is back, sharing how her constant need to apologize may have resulted in a wrong assumption about God. 

I apologize to walls.

I never mean to, but because I have the constant fear of being an inconvenience, my natural response is to always apologize–even when I’ve done nothing wrong.

I do the same thing with the big “life stuff” as well. Even when my husband’s health deteriorated earlier this year and we spent the total of a month’s time in the hospital, I feel like I have to apologize for complaining about it.

This has been especially true as I find myself in this new role as a caregiver. These past 6 months have been really, really hard. Every week, I feel like I reach a new level of exhaustion, and it’s hard to stay optimistic as new challenges come. But I’m not the one who’s sick…so who am I to think the pain I’m experiencing is worth it?

I even transfer this thought process to God, even though I know better. Since my struggle isn’t as bad as someone else’s, I’ll just slip my mess in as a footnote.

I wonder if that’s how the woman in Luke 8 felt. She had been sick for 12 years. 12 years! That’s definitely way worse than I have it. At the time, though, Jesus was on his way to the house of a young girl who was dying, so who was this woman to make a scene? But she knew He could heal her, so she touched his robe. She had incredible faith, even if she felt like an inconvenience.

Jesus saw that, and He saw her. And he sees me. And he sees you. And it feels so good to be seen.

And the God who knit you together in your mother’s womb (Psalm 139) and knows the number of hairs on your head (Matthew 10:29-31), also hears our prayers—even if they’re just a footnote.

Notes from the Beyond Suffering Bible

Sympathy for Our Plight – God’s sympathy for his children includes a special grace toward those who suffer. Although the central point of Jesus’ earthly mission was to provide redemption and eternal life for sinners (19:10), along the way he encountered multitudes of individuals and families coping with various forms of suffering. His response was to reach out with care, compassion, and a healing touch.

 

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  1. Profile photo of Unathi
    Unathi

    Life can be really hard, and at times we will be an inconvenience to people without intending to. I’m thankful to God that He doesn’t see me as an inconvenience. I will say, I seem to have an apology complex when I’m around certain people. 🙂 That’s because I don’t want to offend them, but they’re so easily offended and it seems like I can’t do anything that meets with their approval. I praise God that He’s not like that, and I’m accepted as His beloved child. Being in His presence and knowing my worth to Him helps bring my self esteem back to a healthy level. I’m so thankful for Jesus!

    • PennyB

      Amen!!

    • Larry Crenshaw

      It’s good to realize that Jesus see’s our suffering – no matter what level it is at – in comparison to someone else’s.

    • Teepee

      Amen!

  2. Abbie

    It’s amazing to think that the almighty God and creator of the universe and everything init loves me and listens to me specifically. It’s a concept that’s hard to grasp but I’ve felt His presence in prayer and in life when I ask Him for help in a given situation. I know He’s there and always will be. God is great and through Him all things are possible.

  3. Kimmy

    Bekah, From one caregiver to another. My heart goes out to you. Your husband is facing a battle, but that doesn’t change the fact that you too are facing a battle of a different nature. How many times I crawl up in the lap of God and say, “Daddy, just hold me”, as I cry my heart out. Thank you for sharing your story.

  4. Karla Koerner

    Very encouraging. Prayers of complete restoration and complete healing being lifted up toward both you and your husband. In Jesus name I pray, Amen

  5. Bernice Smith

    Amen. Be encouraged. Cast all your cares upon him, leave them there for He loves you. Don’t beat yourself up. Hang in there. Praying for you.

  6. Profile photo of T Swift

    I always have to remind myself that I can’t be an inconvenience to God because he has “better things to do”; he is infinite and he is everywhere and can do everything all at once! He gives me his full attention, and you, and everyone else… all at the same time! I know that he is infinite and all-knowing and all-powerful, but there’s a difference between knowing those facts and imagining them put into practice. God is never “too busy”; he never has “better things to do.” He is quite capable of giving his full attention to each one of us, and–even better–he wants to do just that!

    Thanks for the reminder today, Bekah!

  7. Ann Morton

    I’m the same way. I appreciatedo this today.

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    Ann

    Thank you for this. I’m the same way and appreciated this today.

  9. Bekah,
    I’m you. My family always made me feel like everyone was always more important than I was/am. So, I always felt like I had to apologize for my very existence. I apologize just because I sneeze too loudly— not that I have any control over that (contrary to what my mom thinks). I apologize because I make people worry about me when they see me in difficult circumstances. So, I do my best to hold everything all together so no one knows anything is wrong so I have nothing to apologize for. I apologize if God-forbid I have to ask for help of anyone because I was taught not to ask for help outside my family because they have their own lives and/or families to provide for and how dare I take from their own resources? Who am I?! God forbid I should have a need! They are god and I am street dirt in my family’s eyes. So, that’s how I saw myself and that’s how I treated myself and allowed myself to be treated until I came to my church 9.5 years ago. Now, I refuse to allow anyone to talk to me like street trash except my mom. She still gets away with it because she has my daughter and uses her against me. Nevertheless, I still apologize for everything. I don’t yet know how to break that. Maybe, we can overcome that together. Be blessed.

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      WAY-FM

      Keri, Thanks for sharing! We are praying for you and your Mom’s relationship to experience healing.

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      Keri Lynn: I felt like I had to apologize for my existence also. Mom & dad were emotionally abusive to me, and I felt like I was “in their way.” Mom had a certain way of talking to me that made me feel like I didn’t matter to her. I, too, got in the habit of apologizing all the time for everything, even when I didn’t do anything to apologize for! Both parents are now deceased and although I loved them, I’m glad that I no longer have to listen to them belittle and patronize me. This year I took a class at church about the armor of God, and in the Bible it basically says that our battles are not with flesh and blood but of demons and Satan. I know that now, and that knowledge helps me feel better about myself, because I am a daughter of the King! Jesus thought enough of me to die for me, so I need to learn to love myself. How about if I pray for you and you pray for me? After all, we are sisters in Christ Jesus. God bless.

  10. Danielle

    I remember when my son was sick and had to have 7 surgeries in two years. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever been through in my life. BUT, the most my faith has ever grown as well. I remember seeing other children who were “much worse” than my son. I almost felt guilty for “my trial”. The enemy wants us (and will do anything) to not rely on or cry out to or “touch” , God. I am soooo thankful that He cares for us no matter what or “how big” our trial is. We are his children, and He loves us. He wants us to go to Him with everything; the good , the bad , and even the the ugly.

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    I do the same thing.
    I internalize all my complaints and hurts, because I feel like they don’t matter. They are nothing compared to the pain and problems that others are going through. In reality, it all matters. God’s heart breaks when any of us are hurting, and He wants us to come to Him with our questions and struggles. Yet there is that head-heart miscommunication Laura Story talked about. Despite knowing that we can go to God, our heart isn’t always convinced.

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      WAY-FM

      Yes, that 18 inches between head and heart can be a difficult bridge to cross over. I love the promise in God’s word that he numbers the hairs on our head – which means he cares about every single detail of our lives, no matter what it is.

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    I often feel the same as Bekah. I don’t suffer from cancer or AIDS or a life-threatening illness, so who am I to take up God’s time with my petty life issues when others have it way worse? But this reading is such a great reminder that God loves ALL His children just the same. He has no favorites. He cares about my issues, big or small, and simply wants me to talk to Him and spend time with Him. So that is what I’m trying to do with these Bible studies – spend more time with my God that cares about me. 🙂

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      WAY-FM

      I’m grateful that God doesn’t measure things the way we humans do. We might assign priority to things but to God it is ALL a priority.

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    Ashton

    Bekah what a wonderful reminder! Even though we feel we are being an inconvenience God sees us, He loves us, we are important to him! Praying for you and your husband as well as everyone out there that is suffering.

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    Kelly

    What an encouraging truth! And just the thing I needed to hear today. Thank you for sharing.

  15. Lamarr

    Thank you for expressing this – we each go through our own struggles, and just because they are minimized compared to others doesn’t mean they hurt us any less, and it’s so good to remember that God cares for each of us. I think of some who struggle over losing a pet who don’t want to say anything to a group because maybe someone in the group lost a loved one. This hits me as well, I’m blessed in so many areas of my life, but my husband is not currently working, and it’s still a struggle! After 10 months it’s hard to continue asking for prayer, but it’s actually needed more than ever.

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      WAY-FM

      Praying for you and your family – for your husband to find employment and for your needs to be taken care of!

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    Daniel

    Thank you Bekah, this one really helped me today. Love you guys, and my prayers to you and your husband.

  17. Lisa

    Becca, I’m the same way, always apologizing for big or little things. And I apologize all the time it seems to God about things I’ve done or didn’t do. Then I stop and think there’s someone hurting more than me, health issues are worse, etc. Our God is such a caring God, loving God, a good good Father. Thank you for sharing your story. I’m loving world’s biggest small group and Way FM everyday. When I’m down, the music lifts me up, or just puts a bigger smile on my face. Love you guys😇💙😘

  18. Profile photo of Nanakaty58

    Thank you Bekah for that I apologize a lot too even when it really has nothing to do with me. Jesus has sympathy for us also in our suffering or our loved ones suffering because he loves us so much

  19. Bethany Holt

    this was so needed today. as being a caregiver to my husband, it is very hard sometimes to think that God Almighty is looking at me and he sees me and that he even knows my name. But praise the Lord he knows my name and he knows all that I need even before I ask.

  20. Cindy Barkley

    This is for Bekah. Sweetheart, I am you, and you are me. I don’t know what your husband’s illness is, but I’ve been going through something similar with mine. He was in a catastrophic motorcycle accident on April 24th, the other guy’s fault for not looking. Brian basically fractured the left side of his body, multiple spinal fractures, pelvis, wrist and fingers, and ribs. He had immediate trauma surgery after being life-flighted to Vanderbilt Hospital, where we were for several weeks. Then he was in a rehab hospital for 5 more weeks before coming home. Five days after the accident he had a heart attack, had a stent placed, then went into v-fib hours later and had to be shocked back to life. While his Orthopedic recovery was slow, I believe it was nothing short of miraculous, considering what his injuries were. However, his cardiac issues have remained and become worse. He had been wearing an external defibrillator since the first heart attack, because of his erratic heartbeat. He suffered a second heart attack just a couple of weeks ago, and we spent another several days in the hospital. He is physically weakened because of this ongoing cardiac condition, he has now been diagnosed with congestive heart failure, and it’s a daily struggle to see this man who was once stronger and with more energy than a man his age should have,become weakened and need help for the simplest of tasks. He is 54 years old. Being a caretaker for him, working full-time, and dealing with my own health issues (I’m 58 years old), is a daily struggle for me. My prayers vary from “help me, God!” to “thank you, Lord!” Hang in there, Bekah. You are stronger than you think, and God is more merciful than we can imagine! <3

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      WAY-FM

      Cindy, thank you so much for sharing! We’ve made sure to add you and your husband to our weekly prayer time.

    • Teepee

      Praying for you and your husband.

  21. Profile photo of Big Country

    Thanks for the reminder! When I couldn’t hardly walk and was in so much pain with my back, I didn’t want to go to the Dr. because I felt like an inconvenience. I felt like my problems were not bad enough to bother the Dr. even though I needed the help of a Dr. It is very comforting knowing that God sees us in the midst of our trials and comforts us even if we feel like an inconvenience. But to God we are much more and he is more than happy to comfort us through our trials.

  22. Kristina

    I am thankful that God sees us and hears us even in the little things.

  23. Profile photo of JennyChestnut

    wow! That it home for me. It is so easy to feel like an inconvenience to others. I stumble on my pride all the time and I pray for Jesus to soften my heart so that I can ask for help sometimes and not feel bad about it.

  24. Profile photo of TRenfro

    This post today was exactly what I needed. This whole series on suffering has given me a new fresh perspective on it all. My mother passed away a few months ago and then we lost my aunt (her sister). It has been a tough year challenging my endurance for loss. This series has hit home and brought peace. Thank you.

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    I needed so much to hear this today. I work so hard to insure that I am not an inconvenience on anyone. A few weeks ago something happened at work that was really just an accident and no one’s fault. I apologized to my co-worker feeling like the incident was my fault. All he said was “life happens Brittany.” Though he didn’t intend for them to, his words stung a little. More than that though, they were a wake up call. Life does happen and God is big enough to handle it. I don’t have to fade into the background or work so hard to make sure no mistakes are made. I just have to do my best and trust God with the rest.

  26. Profile photo of BethNLyle

    Thank you for this today! I really feel the need to apologize ALL the time for one reason or another and have done that most of my life!!! I just want to comfort people who are in a situation and even if I had nothing to do with it, that’s what I do!! I don’t want to interrupt GOD with praying for myself, but I just have a problem with apologizing ALL the time…. I’m going to work on my self-worth and understanding that GOD loves EACH of HIS children and we ALL are VERY important to HIM!! GOD BLESS YOU!!!

  27. Cody Deno

    I also feel the need to constantly apologize for things — even when I haven’t done anything wrong. I have a fear of being an inconvenience.
    I think that constant need to apologize and not be an inconvenience comes from me having Muscular Dystrophy. I NEED help with many, many things, so I guess I don’t WANT to ask for more help than I feel necessary. I don’t want to be a burden. This is just something I need to work on, and I know that with God’s help I can overcome my fear of being a burden and my constant need to apologize.

  28. Profile photo of Missy P

    I am learning to live by faith and not by fear. Amen

  29. Annette

    My favorite part of this is Jesus called out, “Who touched me,” the crowd became almost afraid and embarrassed, like it was something wrong or inappropriate. But, he just wanted her to know that because she believed, he felt her pain and healed her even though she did not want to be a burden or interfere with his plight. I am that woman. I will take, pain or disappointment over inconveniencing someone. I always expect that I am in the way, or not wanted, but it is not like that at all with Jesus. This I need to remember on a daily basis.

  30. Robbie P.

    I am so thankful that JESUS sees me and knows me. I can visualize this happening. Isn’t this wonderful. HE is so wonderful!

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    Bekah,
    I had a very wonderful friend whom I saw as a saint of God. She was a nice, kind, generous, happy, spiritual person that had a fantastic husband and wonderful child.
    One day, in a woman’s ministry meeting, she said, “I wish my mother loved me and I was good enough for her.” WHAT!? WOW!
    She was not fake in all that I saw. She was a devoted woman of Christ. She was a devoted wife and mother. Although she had an inner struggle, she was still that strong, admirable woman.
    You share your story about being in a family where another child is a favorite and you laugh it off a bit. I know you are serious and I know it hurts. BUT, YOU are God’s favorite. You ARE wonderfully and beautifully made. He CREATED you just the way He wanted you to be.
    You say you are too tall. You say your nose is too big. I say HA! I say you are a perfect and wonderful creation. YOU ARE GRAND and where would Joey be without YOU? He would be in a whirl wind of sadness without your amazing personality and beautiful smile. YOU ARE GRAND!

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    lorilu

    Bekah, thank you for sharing this. My prayers go out to you!
    Bless you and your apologetic self!

    I do the same, feel the same. As if I’m an inconvenience to many people in my life. It’s such a strange place to be–
    Thinking that somehow, we are bothersome. Nothing wrong was done…Why do our minds tell us such nonsense?
    Why do I believe it? (And worry about it)

    I’m sure you’re awesome to be around, (even to the walls!)
    God made us amazing in His image, right?
    My prayers for you to continue to embrace how awesome you are, on God’s eyes, as a caregiver, as a woman, as a ChristFollower.
    You GO girl!

  33. Teepee

    Thank you, Bekah! When I was really struggling with difficulties in my life, I was reading Gen.16 for Bible study homework. The LORD revealed Himself to me through His Word. HE told Hagar, I see you. And He saw me. He still sees ME and you. He wants us to know He is El Roi, the One Who Sees. He reminds me of this verse often when I start slipping back into the pit. He is such a Good, Good Father.

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    Eden

    The past three years of my life in USA I have been having a really hard time focusing, worshiping, and doing what I need to do as a Christian, because of the problems at home, and at my church as well. I never can find a way to Christ Jesus till I joined this group. Ever since I joined this group I have been following up with my reading and pray to God. Not till couple months ago I truly feel the Lord Jesus Christ is always there for me. He keeps on encouraging me not to give up on him even when I am facing all the problems at home and at church. Everyday I am trying what ever I can to do what Christ Jesus wanting me to do in life. I know every single day of the minute He is here beside me and helping me to over come all the problems. I can feel that He is there for me. God I thank you so much for sending Your one an only Son Jesus Christ down to this world to rescue all the ones who are completely lost in darkness and can not find the way home, Your coming is to leading those lost people way back home. Thank You God so much for your amazing love and grace! Without You we can not do anything.

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      Unathi

      So glad you found Jesus and joined this group! 🙂 God is faithful.

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    gail

    WOW! Who knew so many of us felt this way? Thank you Bekah for letting us know we are normal.

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    Bekah, Thanks for sharing. In thinking about what you have been going through, I would like to share a book with you. It’s awesome. Passages in Caregiving by Gail Sheehy. I too have been through a lot in the past years. What I thought was important yesterday is not today. But thank God he is always the same no matter what my circumstances are. Prayers for you.

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    When my daughter was diagnosed with Cystic Fibrosis, she was only 3 weeks old, and we were heading into cold, flu, and RSV season. Because of her diagnosis, combined with her premature birth, we were directed by doctors to keep her at home and fairly isolated. My family was unable to attend worship together as a family of 3 until she was around 7-8 months old. When my daughter and I were finally able to attend worship, it was in a very restricted manner: come in late, leave early, come in contact with as few people as possible.
    After the first few months of my staying at home, I began to feel very isolated. I didn’t feel like I could be honest with my feelings with God or anyone else, because I was the caretaker. I needed to be strong for my daughter, for my husband. I sank into a very dark hole in my faith. By the time I realized I was struggling with my faith, I was in so deep that I didn’t know where to begin.
    I am so very thankful for a God who, in His infinite wisdom and mercy, saw my struggles and sent me a support system that was more than I could have imagined. I know now that I can ask my sisters to pray for me when I am too exhausted to pray for my own faith. I know now when I feel the pangs of doubt and fear and jealousy for the life I thought I would have. What an amazing God we serve! He knows our needs long before we know them, and He is already working out a plan for us!
    Great study, Bekah!

  38. Gina

    God is so good, He hears us and always responds in some way.

  39. Robin Wilson

    Oh Bekkah, how I can relate to this! I was brought up to put other people first. Although a good thing, when taken to the extreme, can be a negative. I’m 60 years old and still struggle with feelings of unworthiness. I lived my life putting everything I had into my family, sometimes at the expense of what was best for me. Then one day, I blinked and they were grown with their own families and I was on my own. Uh oh, now what do I do? Even bringing these feelings to God seem petty and selfish when there are so many other people with so many bigger problems.
    I’m still learning the truths you’ve already begun to figure out. So cudoos to you for being open to Gods words. Thank you sharing, it helps to know we’re not the only one suffering with these self esteem issues.

  40. Taelor Barnette

    Ohhh I struggle with this too, and this is really powerful!! Amen!

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    Ashley

    Thank you for sharing Bekam. This was a great post!

  42. Bekah,

    Thank you for today’s reading, though I’m a day late in read it. It made me all teary eyed! It was exactly what I needed.

    This story of this woman is my favorite!
    Also when you said you apologize a lot. ME TOO!!! I always felt like I didn’t belong, wasn’t good enough, or never fit in, but God uses people like us to show His love and that He does see us… I just love that you said that! He’s my Dad! No matter who in the world sees me, the Creator of our amazing universe sees and loves each of us unconditionally and eternally.

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    So glad I went back a few days late to catch up. I’ve never heard anyone say this and it is exactly what I do. I apologize for things all of the time, because I do feel like I inconvenience people. I have never related it to this story in the Bible, but it is so true. Thank you for your words!

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    BeKah I can relate to you on saying I am sorry all the time and feeling like I should not be in the front of things or a leader. I feel like I am a good second person or the person behind the scenes. But God keeps putting me in the front. One example, a few years ago now, we have a place where youth age children can come and just have fun and there is a small Bible study before it ends. Well the youth Pastor was gone for two weeks in a row. The first week went fine with no problems at all. But the second week, wow let me just say anything and everything that could go wrong went wrong this second. I was someone there just to help in the kitchen. See in the background. When everything went wrong no one, I mean no one wanted to take charge. I asked all the youth leaders and some where big strong guys who was in charge and what where they going to do about it and they all said I am not in charge. I don’t know what to do. After I asked the 3rd person, I said that is it. Lets just say I took charge then. But I still preferred the background. God keeps putting me up front like even now I am a children’s pastor at my church. Wow me.
    I said all that because I know how you feel about saying sorry all the time and feel that sometimes God should not care about me. But He does and He cares about you and everyone too.

  45. Profile photo of Becky Wolberg

    God’s sympathy for his children includes a special grace toward those who suffer.— I LOVE KNOWING THIS… needed this reminder

  46. Nancy

    Wow, I feel like a burden a lot so I could completely relate to this.
    I try to help others but when I complain I feel I have no right.

    thankful that God hears me and knows me

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    Susan

    Sometimes it is easier to diminish our own feelings by comparing ourselves to others who “have it worse.” God never diminishes us! We are of complete value to Him where we are- circumstances, feelings, & all.

  48. Beth Gorden

    I’m a caregiver to my husband too. I’ve almost lost him several times. I’m blessed God continues to give me time with this wonderful man. But it’s hard.

  49. Profile photo of Stephanie H

    I feel the same way. I feel like my prayers are low on God’s list compare to the great tragedies in this world. I am grateful for the Bible. It’s in writing. He loves me. 😊

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    So thankful to be seen by Jesus, and as someone special and treasured.

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    I related to Bekah saying, “I apologize to walls.” I’m terrified of being seen, but at the same time, all I want to is to be seen by someone who loves me.

  52. Rahel

    Amen he’ll never leave us or forsaken us.l love you Jesus.

  53. Lori

    Thanks for this Bekah. I find it funny the times I know I need God the most but attempt to hide. All along He knows and longs to help if we would just reach out to Him. Powerful. Needed. Grateful.

  54. Betty-Ann

    I have always been like you apologizing to the walls and anyone for everything. Feeling like my pain does not matter because others are in worse situations.The struggle is real. I daily find myself praying for God’s grace because I hurt & feel like I am not enough because I am no longer able to work help my family to do the extras in life. He always replies that I am worthy and that I am one of His own! What an Amazing God we serve.

  55. Kathleen Kauffman

    Jesus knows who I am and what I’m going through. It’s hard to be obedient and pray for release from all life’s anxieties. Even though He knows he wants me to tell Him. It feels better to give it to Him though because then I can relax and not worry we are not meant to worry. He’s got everything taken care of but I want to take care of it! I have to be in control so that’s even more why I have to take it to Him. Because I have to have control and I don’t, so He has to.

  56. Edie

    Sometime in the mix of things i feel insignificant and unimportant. Then i read God’s word and see I am essential. I apologize for everything too. I work with customers all day and if something isn’t right i have to apologize. It carries into my personal life also. I love seeing people happy sometimes even at the risk of putting my needs and wants second.