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Psalm 121

1 I look up to the mountains—
does my help come from there?
2 My help comes from the Lord,
who made heaven and earth!

3 He will not let you stumble;
the one who watches over you will not slumber.
4 Indeed, he who watches over Israel
never slumbers or sleeps.

5 The Lord himself watches over you!
The Lord stands beside you as your protective shade.
6 The sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon at night.

7 The Lord keeps you from all harm
and watches over your life.
8 The Lord keeps watch over you as you come and go,
both now and forever.

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WBSGbio_BekahToday, Bekah from The Wally Show writes from the heart about walking with her husband Joey through suffering this year. 

Back in April, my husband became unexpectedly ill. He went from needing a routine procedure to clear a gallstone, to a terrible case of pancreatitis, to sepsis, to the beginning stages of organ failure—all in the matter of a few hours. Meanwhile, I was half a world away in Rwanda with a poor internet connection. Every spotty update was more bad news, and suddenly life hit me hard in the face and presented me with the fear of becoming a widow at the age of 25.

The next few weeks were especially rough. When I finally arrived, he was in the ICU and in an immense amount of pain. For the next 16 days, we faced sleepless nights, setbacks, and uncertainty as doctors tried to figure out what was going on with his body.

But there was something surprising in those 2 weeks that I never saw coming: an immense amount of peace. I know there were dozens of people praying for him, and I felt it every day in that hospital room. Life had thrown us the worst curveball, but I knew that my God was bigger than all of it: no matter what the outcome may be.

These verses in Psalm 121 ran through my head during those long days in the hospital. Knowing there’s a God that provides help and rest and peace in my worst moments allowed me to exhale all of the anxiety and stress I was holding in.

Not every moment since has been perfect peace. There are so many times where I get re-absorbed in the drama of life: whether it’s illness, or insomnia, or broken windshields….

But something incredible still happens when I take just a moment to pause and remember where my help comes from and the God who watches over me even as I sleep. He’s the same God who saw me through the absolute worst days of my life and continues to watch over me without ever taking a break.

 

Notes from the Beyond Suffering Bible

God’s Watchful Care – As valuable as spouses, parents, friends, and pastors are in the lives of those faced with disability and suffering, none can compare with God, who watches over and cares for us day and night. He never slumbers or sleeps! No matter your condition—even when unconscious due to seizures, surgeries, or much-needed medications—the Maker of heaven and earth “stands beside you as your protective shade” (121:5). You can sing with the psalmist, “My help comes from the Lord” (121:2).

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  1. Gary Clark

    God is always with us. There was a time in my life when I was lost doing drugs, drinking and living a full blown life of sin. God was with me still then, even before I started walking with Him. He is always faithful, that is why today I am not dead or in jail somewhere. He has taken all that stuff out of my life and has blessed me beyond measure.

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      That’s awesome. Such a testament to God’s incredible grace. Reminds me of Romans 5:8. “God showed His love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ did for us.” Thanks for sharing, both you and Bekah.

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    Unathi

    Bekah, I’ve prayed for you and your husband over these past few months. I can’t imagine what it would be like to have the possibility of widowhood hanging over my head. Your testimony is encouraging, even though you are still experiencing these trials. God has been faithful and will continue to be faithful.

    That peace that defies understanding is amazing, isn’t it? When you don’t know what the outcome will be but you’re confident that God remains who He is: faithful, loving, protective, a Healer, Deliverer, a perfect Father… You know that the outcome may not be the most desirable, but God has the whole situation with all its complications in His sights, and He is good. God bless you and your husband. I’m continuing to pray for you.

  3. Profile photo of Roberta

    Bekah, you are Joey have been lifted up in prayer constantly. And I know sometimes it is uncomfortable to ‘live life on the radio’, but that is what I appreciate about Way-FM…. All of you are REAL. And those of us on the other side of the speakers can sense this and know that your struggles are the same as ours. You are all blessings to us and our prayers are with you always.

  4. Bernice Smith

    Amen

  5. Cheryl Hopper

    Inspiring and chilling thank you for sharing!

  6. Charmell Carr

    In July my, then 14 yr old, daughter had a seizure. For a brief second, even though it felt like minutes, I was transported back to when she was 11 mos old lying next to me in bed having a seizure. Then they were called febrile seizures (associated with fevers) and she outgrew them. But the remnants stayed with her in her development and inability to learn with her chronological age. I knew of the possibility of epilepsy later in life but chose to ignore it and give her as normal a life as possible. This summer, as we were in the ER, the doctor treated me like I was crazy and didn’t know what I was talking about, just like fifteen years ago. But her doctor agreed with me and after a month of waiting we finally got to have the testing done. A week later my fear became our reality. She is my inspiration taking her medication like a trooper, never complaining, and being who she is. Out of all my family and friends only one showed me compassion and comfort during that difficult time. Everyone else brushed it off because it can be controlled with medication. Between that friend and God I know deep in my heart that everything is going to be ok. Thank you Bekah for sharing your story. God Bless you and your husband.

  7. Profile photo of Nicole C

    Thank you for your testimony! This is my favorite scripture, because God spoke to me through this verse, several years back and its a reminder of where our help comes from!! God Bless

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    Scottc

    Its beautiful how Jesus gives us the ability to be purified during suffering. Although suffering was never designed to be a part of this world in the original plan God has used the suffering we all indure to allow us to be sanctified. If we unite to the suffering of the Cross and do it with out complaint we allow God to fortify our souls and in a sence purify us in his sight. As it says in Colossians 1:24
    “Who now rejoice in my sufferings for you, and fill up those things that are wanting of the sufferings of Christ, in my flesh, for his body, which is the church”
    And if we fill ourselfs with what was lacking in the suffering of Christ we will be glorified in this time. And most importantly Jesus said:
    John 6
    56 For my flesh is meat indeed: and my blood is drink indeed.
    57 He that eateth my flesh, and drinketh my blood, abideth in me, and I in him.
    58 As the living Father hath sent me, and I live by the Father; so he that eateth me, the same also shall live by me.
    After saying this many stopped following him and he never stopped them to explain the meaning since he stated it plainly and it required faith which few had.

    • Profile photo of Adrienne

      Thank you for sharing. The verses you shared touched my heart and soul just where it was needed. Thank you.

  9. Profile photo of STBROWNING

    God’s peace is amazing! I remember battling breast cancer and would have moments of despair, crying out to God, and just feeling His presence, spoke peace to my heart that He was going to see me through every step of the way!

  10. Profile photo of tcreech

    AMEN and well said. Thank you for sharing.

  11. Profile photo of CarrieAnn71272

    Breathtaking and beautiful! I needed this today! God bless everyone!

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    Chip

    Bekah I know you are going threw a lot of trials right now. Just know you are showing what a Godly woman truly is. Your faith, devotion & over whelming love for Joey shows everyday.
    Whether you know it or not you are a Godly role model & a great example of one. I know right now things seem dark but once it is over you & Joey will be stronger for it. I just want you to know that you have church family out there praying for you both. P.S. massive prayers & love from C P Dickson.

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    Joni

    Thank you! I love that scripture! It’s amazing how God brings such encouragement, strength and peace in our hard times by speaking to us through scripture. What an awesome God we serve!

  14. Profile photo of Debbie Bluestone

    powerful reminder …Psalm 121 is one I pray over each morning before writing in my prayer journal…sometime I tell people who are struggling that if you just can’t believe it, then read it over and over again until it becomes a part or you and you can believe God’s words

  15. Esteban Pedroza

    Hermoso simplemente hermoso, disculpen que escriba en español, pero no soy bueno escrbiendo en Ingles, se que halguien lo va a traducir, QUIERO FELICITAR A TODOS LOS DE LA RADIO, HACEN UN TRABAJO HERMOSO PARA EL SEÑOR, DIOS LOS VA A SEGUIR BENDICIENDO!

    Translation:

    Beautiful! Just beautiful! Sorry to write in Spanish, but I’m not good at writing in English. I know that someone will translate it. I WANT TO CONGRATULATE ALL THE RADIO – YOU ARE MAKING A BEAUTIFUL WORK FOR THE LORD! GOD WILL BE BLESSING!

  16. Damarys

    He is always with us. This psalm was my grandmothers favorite. Thank you Father for been there for us all the time even when we don’t feel like you are.

  17. Profile photo of Aaron R.

    I think it is beautiful that an ancient psalmist was blessing present people with a word from God. “He will not let YOU stumble”, “The Lord himself watches over YOU!”, and “The Lord keeps watch over YOU as YOU come and go,
    both now and forever”. The writer is telling me that God is watching over me and will not rest in that. I find it very calming and peaceful. Thank you for sharing this with us today!

  18. Lisa Ladd

    I can totally relate to your story. My husband and I were married a little over 2 years ago. His Step dad passed away from cancer, 6 months after we were married, my husband wanted to move out of state(where I’ve lived my whole life) for a new job career as a tree climber/trimmer and that was a year into our marriage. Then 6 months after we moved, he fell 51 feet to crushing his back in 4 places, 4-5 rib fractures, sternum fracture, head fracture, and a collapsed lung. Not knowing very many people at all. It has been 7 months now and he is still not working. It has been a lonely scary journey, but I HAVE to put my complete trust in the Lord. I HAVE to believe that God wants something amazing for my husband and I. I don’t know what, and I’m ready for the waiting to end, but that is what I have to hold onto right now. Love psalm 42, as Joy shared a couple days ago. That psalm resonates with me. Keep strong, even when we don’t “feel” like it.

  19. Profile photo of Stephannie

    Thanks Bekah! Your strength is evident even over the radio! I truly believe Gods mercies are new every morning, and He really does provide exactly what we need if we put our trust in Him. Your an inspiration to me! God bless!

  20. Profile photo of Kearstin

    This is completely relatable. I recently lost someone very close to me and it felt like everything was falling apart, then there was a sense of peace that I felt when I realized the Lord is working. He is always with us and He will always be watching over us and never gives us something we cannot handle. The sense of peace, for me, came from knowing that He is in control. Thank you for sharing.

  21. Profile photo of nick.wellenbrock@gmail.com

    I have to admit reading the verse at first all I could think is Bekah doing her impersonation. Listening to the Wally show it is always great to see the family they have together but also the strength they get from the Lord.

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    Lysa

    My husband fell ill 3 years ago, and until the doctors could figure out what was wrong it was so stressful. It was just before our 22nd anniversary and I posted on facebook that what we were experiencing was what vows are all about. Taking the bad with the good and getting through it…but, if not for God, I wouldn’t have thought that way, in that or any other situation!

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    Ashley

    God is with us through thick and thin. He is always there. He has been with me through some touch times and will be her for me and everyone through the storms that are happening now. As well he will be here after. He will NEVER LEAVE us!!!

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    amanda

    Thank you Bekah. Even when things are going wrong, I know he is watching me. Great word!

  25. Cody Deno

    Today’s reading really spoke to me.

    Back in the summer of ’09 I went through a Spinal Fusion surgery to correct my scoliosis, or crooked spine. In this surgery, the doctors opened up my back and inserted stainless steel rods along both sides of my spine. Needless to say, it was an intense surgery; it lasted 12 hours. When I woke up I was in pretty severe pain. I was in the hospital for about 2 weeks recovering from this surgery. I wouldn’t have been in the hospital as long as I was if the doctor hadn’t bumped the nerve to my bladder. For a while I could not urinate (or do the other thing on my own), but thankfully I no longer have an issue with that.

    Many people at my church were praying for me, as well as my family and friends, which is what I believe got me through the pain and helped me recover. During my stay in the hospital and a couple weeks after, I didn’t really pray much or read the Bible much, but God was with me and helping me get through the recovery process. It’s like what Romans 8:26 says, “The Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words.”

  26. bamagirl

    Thank you for sharing this with us. I too have been down that road. God was totally with me and my husband during his time of illness. God along with a faithful church members praying for us and surrounding us with God’s love brought us through. We are living proof of God’s never ending love. Thank you God for your plan for our lives.

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    Thanks for the reminder. Your situation is much different and worse but it reminded me of my mom this past spring. She left to go to Walmart and was fine and an hour later was in the hospital in tons of pain. She had pancreatitis really bad due to gall stones and a bad gall bladder that needed to be removed. But they had to get her healthy before the surgery. We thought at one point we were going to lose her. She was in the hospital for over 40 days and came home not well. From April to July she really didn’t live life, but now through God’s grace she has had her gall bladder removed and continues to improve from that surgery. It’s amazing at how God can work and use these bad times for the better. God is good all the time even during the bad times we go through as I have learned.

  28. Vicki

    The sataion has been such a source of great comfort and strength over the last month. I couldn’t believe it when I read Bekahs story. My husband got sick right after Labor Day and it was found that he had Gall bladder CA we are now waiting to have a liver resection this next Tuesday. I too have found peace and calm inybreaching out to God! In the worst moments he has walked with me.

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    Asher

    Bekah, your story reminds me of 2 Corinthians 4:8-9:
    We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. (NIV)
    Thank you for being so honest about your story. It really shows that God is strong when we are weak!

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    I lost my mom to cancer at age 50, 16 years ago and not a day goes by that I don’t think about her. Sitting with her those last few weeks in the hospital were extremely hard but I could feel the presence of God with us and knew he was providing that peace and comfort that passes all understanding. Praying for you and your husband for a complete and full recovery.

  31. Robbie P.

    The peace that comes from The Sweet Holy Spirit is indescribable, but only can be explained as Him.

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    I know God is always with me. I face a medical procedure in the next week and know He will be there every step of the way. God is Good, always!

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    DG

    Last year, my wife lost her 4 year fight with cancer. During the battle, she had surgery to remove as much of the cancer as possible. while she was getting ready to go to the hospital, I read Psalm 121 over and over. Our pastor came to the hospital before the surgery and he read Psalm 121 over her before the operation. In the last 15 months since she went home, God has used it over and over to remind me that I am not alone (v5).

  34. Profile photo of Becky Wolberg

    I spent most of this year in and out of the hospital with my husband. MRSA took his leg below the knee. I really felt the weight of all this and had to keep saying to myself that I cannot control what was happening. But God can… One way or the other there was and still is an outcome…a plan..his..not mine.

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    Andy

    Prayers for continuing health as you both walk in the light. God Bleas you and your family!

  36. Profile photo of Samantha

    I heard Casting Crowns’ “Praise You In This Storm” for the first time five and a half years ago. I had suffered a great tragedy nearly a year earlier and had turned away from God and any belief He existed at all. I was scrolling through the radio while driving one day and came across this song on KLOVE (because WAY-FM doesn’t have a station where I was living at the time), and I began to cry so hard that I had to pull over. I had been so lost in the storm and pain of the previous year’s events. I had turned so far from God and didn’t think that there was any way back to Him. I was also still so angry with Him for allowing tragedy to destroy my life the way it did that I didn’t think there was any way He’d still be with me. When I heard that song, I knew that He was still there. Some of the song’s lyrics pull from Psalm 121, and when I found that out I knew I had to go read further to see what else God was trying to tell me. Reading Psalm 121:8, “The Lord keeps watch over you as you come and go, both now and forever.” was exactly what I needed at that time in my life.

    Reading your story today and seeing that the same Bible passage helped you in your time of suffering made me tear up remembering how the same passage helped me. However different our situations were, the Lord still wanted that to be the message each of us received, and for very different reasons. I think it’s so amazing that Psalm 121 helped you too, Bekah! The Lord sends us His word and messages through many of the same verses, but they speak something so uniquely different to each of us sometimes.

  37. Kimberly

    Your testimony really got to me and I pray for your family each time I can. What got to me most is the verse that you quoted. I remember you using this verse when imitating Sofia Vergada on the For King and Country intro to “Shoulders” and it made me emotional that this verse would be there for you in the most scariest times. Just like many, your testimony brought me back 4 years when my mother was in a near death motorcycle accident leaving her paralyzed from the waste down. She was in another country when it happened so I had to fly out to be by her side and be the strong one for my younger brothers and sisters. Its in those tough moments that you need the reminders of God’s promises and hope that his word offers and most of it came to me in the form of music played by your station. Thank you for being vulnerable and open by sharing your story, the honesty and real life approach of this station has brought me through the most toughest times and I thank you for letting God use you through this ministry.

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    Sherry

    Awesome testimony! It’s so easy to get distracted with everyday life and remember to just stop and breath to remember God is in control and everything will work out for his greater purpose. Thank you for sharing.

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    tpugh

    Bekah, sorry this is late, I live in Jacksonville and are just coming back to work from hurricain Matthew. I am a loyal poddy. I pray for you and Joey often. I am so thankful for your testimony. Can I say one thing funny, I can not read Psalm 121 without hearing your Sofia Vergara impression in my head. lol. Peace, love, and healing are being prayed over you guys.

  40. Profile photo of Megan Starr

    This one I have been reading for the past couple days because I was the husband 3 years ago. I got sick landed in the hospital found out I had sepsis and they all told me to plan my death as I have young children to think about. Those 5 months were the hardest. The pain is unlike any other pain. Trying to plan leaving my children and I was not ready to leave them. During that time the hardest was all my family and all my local friends turned their backs on us. My two children were in the hospital with me, watching me go through all this, so I couldn’t even fully breakdown. There was 3 nurses that would take them for walks and make sure they were fed, play with them. The third day of this I got a call from a friend who lives in Chicago (I’m in Oregon) he was just calling to check on things and I lost it. I cried and I just laid it all out there. He asked details and told me he will be there by tomorrow. I didn’t think anything of it because his career made him travel a lot so he’s just trying to make me feel better. The next day I was told I had visitors. My friend and three ladies walk in my room. I cried and asked what was going on? He introduced me to his mom and sisters. They took my house keys and my kids home while my friend stayed 9 days with me in the hospital fighting for answers with me. This was a change in my life when I thought I was going to die alone god gave me my friend. 5 months after the hospital stay I went to get checked out, I felt amazing and that was the first time in months I could say that. They tested me and it was gone. No signs of it even months later. I remember the week before I was in my room on my knees looking up yelling and crying that I can’t leave. They need me as I am all they got. You promised if I trust you and listen you will hear me so hear me. I’m going with dying but I am not okay leaving my babies with nothing. Please here them when they pray. Fine! Take me but protect them! All I could do, all I had left was me on my knees laying all I had out there. That was the moment I truly have given myself to god as that showed how good he is and he does listen but we need to turn to him and only him. We need to hear him and see what he does. Stop turning to people turn to him. Pray and pray with passion!

    • Mandy

      Wow what a powerful testimony! Thanks for sharing!!

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    Susan

    Pause & remember…my focus on God brings peace rather than my focus on circumstances bringing chaos or fear

  42. Profile photo of stephaniewalters

    I look up to the mountain- does my strength come from the mountains? No My Strength comes from God! God is our helping hand, our hope and peace is suffering times. If you are going through this Daily Devotion, Listen to the Song Shoulders by King and Country. I heard it on WayFm and this song goes right along to this Devotion. God Bless you!

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      Bekah, My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, and I wish your husband a speedy recovery. God bless you for the work that you do for him, and believe me, you have favor in his sight. God Bless

  43. Profile photo of PurpleZebra1128

    Amen. This is a good testimony and a good constant reminder. Thank you.

  44. Mandy

    Such a great reminder! So hard to understand in those dark moments that He is in vomplete control and we don’t need to do anything but pray and trust Him!

  45. Profile photo of Kirsten

    I went through a much shorter version of this last year with my daughter. She was diagnosed with mycoplasma pneumonia and was hospitalized for 9 days (8 days spent in Peds ICU). Being a nurse I could read the monitor and I knew when her numbers weren’t good. It was a scary time. But I still had God’s peace. I am so thankful that she was able to be discharged and had a relatively short recovery time at home. Through it all I knew God was with our family. Though I would never want to go through it again I knew it drew me closer to God.

  46. Profile photo of bmblackmon

    My favorite Psalm ever! God has given me this as testimony and redemption. God is good, so thankful He’s always there, always protecting me <3

  47. Kathy Teer

    Bekah, thank you for sharing. I relived the days I did the exact same thing as I sat next to my husband’s hospital beside several years ago. The peace that God gives in those times is amazing and a true testimony to those around you, particularly the unbelievers. I will continue to keep you and Joey in prayer as the healing continues. God bless.

  48. Profile photo of Jennifer  C

    Amen. In sickness and in Heath, we marry God as we marry our spouses. Trust him, hard lesson to hear.

  49. Jennifer

    Bekah, when I read the part about you being afraid you were going to be a widow at 25, my heart healed a bit. I’m not the only one! I love having a sister in Christ who is going through something similar as me. My husband has Crohn’s disease and I almost lost him 2 years ago. We’ve been married for 2 and a half years now. 6 months into our marriage he started losing weight and having a terrible pain in his abdomen. Within a month’s time, he had lost 80 pounds and he could barely work he was in so much pain. I was scared to death that I was going to lose him. His body just couldn’t absorb anything he ate. He was wasting away. He was pale and skinny…I can’t look at picture back then, it’s too scary and it hurts too much. He finally decided he wanted to go to the ER right after Christmas and it was discovered that his Crohn’s was out of remission and raging wild along with a giant abscess above his bladder that could have burst any day and caused sepsis. He was hospitalized and a drain was put in to get rid of the abscess and a bowel resection was schedule for a month away once the infection had died down in his body. Throughout the next year he had 3 surgeries, one of them being an emergency surgery (I had to leave class and rush to him). Since then, he was okay, but now he’s sick again. Something is wrong with his liver and his doctors haven’t been able to figure it out yet and his Crohn’s is back again. We’re trying a new med to see if it works along with a diet change. I try not to live in fear, but I do sometimes. I almost lost him at 23. He had a high risk of colon cancer (which my grandma, one of my best friends, just died of very young this year) and some of his meds can cause cancer also. I am so scared that I’m going to lose him and be so alone like my grandpa is right now. But I need to remember that God is by my side every step of the way. He loves us so much. And His plan is perfect regardless.

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    I was in 5th grade making a poster for my religion class. I had drawn mountains but had no idea what or how I was going to connect it to the assignment. Sister Joann told me about Psalm 121 and that is what scripture I used. I remember the drawing and would try to recall what was written all these years later ( about 40). I recently came across it. And now on Day 5! I will mark it now and recite it daily. I love the mountains and feel so much serenity when I am there…they definitely remind me where my help comes from…it comes from the Lord!

  51. Myfaithwillstand1622

    Thanks for sharing. I can relate when we spent all those days in the hospital with our daughter, but she didn’t make it. I wonder now how I was able to wake up everyday and walk down that hall with so much strength and knowing that any day could be her last, but I cried and laughed in all those days. I know now looking back that peace that helped me through was God. There is no way that I could have sat beside her day in and day out watching her fight for her life and knowing the only thing I could do was watch time go by and pray that God would save her. Although she is no longer with us I believe God did save her. But I miss her dearly and not a day goes by that she is not on my mind and heart.

  52. Judy Miller

    Thank you for your story and the Blessing I received through scripture. My prayers are with you all. God truly Blesses us through others tribulations.

  53. Virginia

    BEKAH I KNOW GOD IS WITH US NO MATTER WHAT WE ARE GOING THROUGH. PSALM 121 IS VERY INSPIRING I ALSO READ THAT PSALM EVERYDAY.

  54. Praying for complete healing for your husband and increased peace amongst trials and tribulation

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    Thank you for this word. We need Him most during the hard times and sometimes forget. He works in His time not ours. I am thankful I decided to do this study and see others struggle through similar things. I know He knows the plans He has for me and will reveal them in His time.

    I lost my 1st husband on an accident when I was 33. It is hard especially when I had a6 yr old. I made many mistakes but God was with me through all of it.

  56. Kathleen Kauffman

    I often wonder what it’s like really to lose a husband or wife at an early age. I think if a friend even knowing her husband before I knew her, and watching from a distance as he had a heart attack which seemed at a very young age. I want to be there for her, but I don’t think I’ve got the perfect words for her. I’ve tried to open up to her as I know she grieves. With Bekah’s story on her husband I wonder what it is exactly that keeps others strong. I was hospitalized as my mother was dying. I felt weak, and that I didn’t belong anywhere. Everyone was going on with their lives. I found I could hardly pick myself up out of bed. I still suffer depression and anxiety along with a disability that I will most likely have for the rest of my life. That reality really discourages me from day to day. I must learn to live with it, and find I can do nothing but to get up and literally pick my chin up every morning at the dawning of a new day. I need to express more gratitude, and don’t believe people really hear me when I do.